Welcome Message

I’m so glad you’ve found My Very Own Angel; if you haven’t already check out our official website, please take the time to check it out at http://www.myveryownangel.org/ . My Very Own Angel is full of supportive resources and idea to assist women while carrying to term and post the loss of their angel. In addition to support for mothers MVOA also includes supportive resources and idea for everyone that is affected by pregnancy and infant loss, including fathers, grandparents, siblings, friends and family.

My Very Own Angel also heads off the 345 Teddy Bear Project, where every other year we donate 115 7” teddy bears wearing angel necklaces to various hospitals and prenatal diagnostic centers in sets of 3.

My Very Own Angel is also the original creator and designer of the official “I Have My Very Own Angel” T-Shirt and other soon to be announced keepsakes, to encourage women to be proud of their angels and make a statement to the world that often overlooks pregnancy and infant loss as something that “just happens”. The woman herself is a strong being to carry, birth, and take care of children, so what does that say about the unspoken and often forgotten women who suffer the loss of child against the natural order of death? It says that we have already climbed the hardest mountain, there is no sense in going back down, so climb up and keeping climbing doing good deeds, honoring your angel and practicing positive healing after such a tragic situation. Eventually you will reach the highest mountain, and you will hold your child in your arms again.

Thank you for taking the time to follow this blog and see the site, if you are a bereaved parent I can formally say I know how you feel, if you are a friend, family member, or an outsider looking in. Stay for a while check out some of the blogs we follow, view this situation from eyes of the families that have lost, I assure you, you will learn something and find a new sense of compassion.

Stephanie Stewart
Founder and Creator of My Very Own Angel

Monday, October 19, 2009

Week 12 of The Secret

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

When our babies are taken from us too early, it sure can seem like the whole world is against us. We wonder why us?, why now? We say I did everything right, I wanted this baby, I prayed for their health. Yet the world still went against what we wanted.

What is Faith? Faith is trusting that everything will work out no matter what. Faith is knowing that we all will see our babies again. Faith is trusting that the world was in fact on our side when our babies were picked to be angels.

Losing our babies is by far the worst thing, it's not fair, it hurts like hell, and it's real. The reason why all this happened, we will never truly know, but you were not picked to be a mommy of an angel to turn your back on the world.

If you've lost faith since the loss of your child, it's time to find it again. If you never had it before and you need something to lean on, faith is an awesome crutch. Sufficient Grace is an awesome place to start, not only will you get amazing lessons in faith, but you will find amazing tools in healthy grieving the loss of your baby with Kelly. The added bonus Kelly has her very own angels and she's proud to say it.

I hope that this week by week digest of The Secret was as fun for you as it was for me. You can always go back to the lines in this poem and if you fall, get back up, dust yourself off and keeping climbing up that mountain. By the time you reach the top you will be reunited with your very own angel(s)

God Bless

Friday, October 16, 2009

Giveaway Winner!!!!!!!!

An amazing random act of kindness, I thought Dana from The Midnight Orange was amazing for donating the Never, Ever Let Go sculpture to the MVOA blog giveaway. While reading through your amazing responses it dawned on me that I have a special connection to all of your ladies and all of your angels. Some of you lost before me and you lit the light for me and my journey through loss and some of you are amazing followers of the light I’ve lit for you. I couldn’t pick a winner, so I asked Dana to please help me. She knows none of you ladies and only came in contact with me 2 weeks ago, I thought it would be fair that way.

Dana said each of you deserved to win and she is graciously donating one (1) sculpture to everyone who entered in this giveaway on blogger. She is busy working on them so please allow time but you will all get one that you noted was your favorite or one that she felt suited you based upon the photos on your blogs.

I want you to know that Dana is indeed a walking angel, and I found her website for a reason. I need you mothers to support this artist and this wonderful giving woman. She gets the feelings that we only wish others would understand. She is hope for us, that those not effected personally by pregnancy and infant loss, can understand what we are going through.

I need you ladies to do 3 things for me before accepting this prize.

Thank Dana by posting a thank you comment here on my blog

Also please create a post on your blog letting everyone know how awesome she is
as a person and an artist. Here web link is www.themidnightorange.com

Please send me your names and addresses to myveryownangel@gmail.com

I want every angel mommy to have at least one of her sculptures, not just because they are so beautiful, but because of who they came from, a person who read into our stories, she stepped into our pain, channeled that into a God given talent and she is humble enough to bless so many with empty arms and aching hearts. Please share her info with everyone you know.

* If you did not enter into this giveaway, please still take a moment and visit The Midnight Orange, amazing, breathtaking work.

God Bless

Thursday, October 15, 2009

October 15th

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. This day was set aside for us to remember all the angels gone too soon. Please remember to light a candle at 7pm (all time zones) to create a wave of life in memory of our very own angels.
The Never Let Go giveaway is still going on until 10/16. I will be having another giveaway which is going to start on Monday or Tuesday.
I will be thinking of all of you and all of your angels tonight.
God Bless

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Week 11 of The Secret

I'm sorry I missed the post yesterday I was having one of those days and just need to take some time off, I'm better now and climbing back up that mountain. Will you join me?

To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.

Did you ever blame yourself for what happened to your angel? Did you ever second guess something you did while you were pregnant? maybe it's something very small like sleeping on the right side instead of the left side, but did you ever wonder was it you? I've made it very clear that I believe I did everything right in my pregnancy with Vayden, but being told his condition was a fluke in development was hard to accept at first. I wanted someone or something to blame for this. I recall second guessing myself at times, wondering if the spicy nachos I ate every single day for 8 weeks caused this.

When I would share his fetal condition to strangers, some would boldly ask if I was taking my prenatals or getting enough water, rest, or eating the right foods. When I would tell them it's a rare fluke in development they would give me this eye as if they were saying "well you must have done something wrong, my babies are healthy" Some were very sympathetic and understanding, I believe they've either walked this road of loss of they knew someone who did.

When Vayden died, I told myself that I will not allow myself to ever fall into thinking that I'm to blame, I know I researched hard enough, I prayed strong enough and I loved/love him with every piece of my heart. I did nothing wrong and no one can tell me otherwise, so I share his story with everyone and anyone, because I DID NOTHING WRONG!!!, therefore I have nothing to be ashamed of.

The 345 Teddy Bear Project speaks entirely to this line, every teddy bear has Vayden's blog URL on it and every bear is to encourage woman to share their story just as I've shared mine. Because we did nothing wrong.

See you next week : To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Blog Giveaway!!!!

I've been holding small giveaways on MVOA's facebook page, so if you're on facebook please be sure to follow MVOA, but I have been holding onto the special items to giveaway for blog followers only. Dana is an original artist & her work is one of a kind, while searching for an item to giveaway I came across The Midnight Orange I couldn't take my eyes off of this particular piece. I didn't even know the title of the piece but I knew what it was saying, before I read about it. I contacted Dana and expressed to her how much I loved her work and what I was planning to do with my order, she contacted me about 10 min later and told me she would be honored to donate this item to My Very Own Angel for this giveaway. Dana is not a mother to an angel, but she has figured out our pain by reading many stories of mothers who do suffer child loss. I am forever grateful for your kind heart and donation Dana.

This piece is called " Never ever, let go" it's both beautiful and heartbreaking as a mother holds onto her baby that is already an angel. It hit a very soft spot on my heart the moment I saw it. Scroll down for giveaway rules:

To enter this giveaway you must 1st be a follower of this blog, then you must leave a comment about your never let go moment, and how this small statue made you feel when you first looked at it. You can gain an additional entry point by visiting The Midnight Orange
and telling me which hand sculpted statue is your personal favorite.
This Giveaway ends October 16, 2009 at 5pm (CDT) ~ Good Luck
* Also if you have an MVOA t-shirt and you're not camera shy, please email me a photo of you wearing your MVOA t-shirt to myveryownangel@gmail.com - Thank you

Fight for Wyatt

What can you do in 2 minutes????

live, die, be born, eat, sleep, wake up, go to bed, smile, cry, run, hide, watch a commercial, type an answer, log in, log out, dial a number wait for the voice mail to pick up and leave a short message....etc. YOU CAN DO JUST ABOUT ANYTHING IN 2 MINUTES.

However in the state of TN, 2 minutes is not enough to be considered born alive, despite the health you were born into. Wyatt was born June 1, 2009 and lived for 2 minutes, but the state of TN, is not recognizing those amazing 2 minutes of life and they have considered him still born. Please help Danielle fight for Wyatt, this brave mother carried to term despite his fatal diagnosis she said
"Those 2 minutes will probably be the most precious 120 seconds of my life. If I had chosen to terminate the pregnancy, I would have robbed Wyatt of his life and I would have robbed the world of all the beauty my 4 pound 0.6 ounce little boy brought with him." http://myveryownangel.org/Why-I-Carried-To-Term.php

Suppot Danielle and by clicking on the button on this post and visit her blog Letting Go and Letting God

Monday, October 5, 2009

Week 10 of The Secret

To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

I often wish to be the type of person that lets little or nothing affect them. I worry about Vashon all the time, I can get angry or upset over the smallest things depending on my day. I'm a fearful driver because of my accidents in the past.

When I read this line last week it immediately reminded me of the armor of God. The belt of Truth, the breastplate of Righteousness, the shoes of Peace, the shield of Faith, the helmet of Salvation, and the sword of the Spirit. So I began to pray this armour over my body every morning, it actually works I'm not completely free of these negative characteristics but I do start everyday with the knowledge that whatever is thrown at me, my armor will block it.

See you next week: To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.