Welcome Message

I’m so glad you’ve found My Very Own Angel; if you haven’t already check out our official website, please take the time to check it out at http://www.myveryownangel.org/ . My Very Own Angel is full of supportive resources and idea to assist women while carrying to term and post the loss of their angel. In addition to support for mothers MVOA also includes supportive resources and idea for everyone that is affected by pregnancy and infant loss, including fathers, grandparents, siblings, friends and family.

My Very Own Angel also heads off the 345 Teddy Bear Project, where every other year we donate 115 7” teddy bears wearing angel necklaces to various hospitals and prenatal diagnostic centers in sets of 3.

My Very Own Angel is also the original creator and designer of the official “I Have My Very Own Angel” T-Shirt and other soon to be announced keepsakes, to encourage women to be proud of their angels and make a statement to the world that often overlooks pregnancy and infant loss as something that “just happens”. The woman herself is a strong being to carry, birth, and take care of children, so what does that say about the unspoken and often forgotten women who suffer the loss of child against the natural order of death? It says that we have already climbed the hardest mountain, there is no sense in going back down, so climb up and keeping climbing doing good deeds, honoring your angel and practicing positive healing after such a tragic situation. Eventually you will reach the highest mountain, and you will hold your child in your arms again.

Thank you for taking the time to follow this blog and see the site, if you are a bereaved parent I can formally say I know how you feel, if you are a friend, family member, or an outsider looking in. Stay for a while check out some of the blogs we follow, view this situation from eyes of the families that have lost, I assure you, you will learn something and find a new sense of compassion.

Stephanie Stewart
Founder and Creator of My Very Own Angel

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

You Just Never Know

A few days ago my mom called me to tell me about her hectic and hard day. It all started when she took a chance at taking my dads truck to work. This truck has a mind of it's own but has been nice for the most part. She arrived to work 20 minutes late and had mountains of paper work to tackle. After waiting in the drive through for 15 minutes only to find that they gave her the wrong order she thought "how can this day get any worse". While driving home the truck with a mind of it's own decided that it wanted to break down, while on the side of the road and sunset coming soon, my mom called for a tow. They quoted her 15-20 minutes of course they took almost 50 minutes. On the ride home the young tow truck driver and my my mom were causally making small talk, he went on to ask about kids because she mentioned how my brother and I attended high school in the city, that conversation lead him to ask about grand kids and my mom jumped to tell him I Have My Very Own Grand~Angel. He offered his condolences and asked what happened, my mom shared Vayden's story and was just finishing up telling him about my mission, as they pulled up to the house. Before my mom got out of the tow truck, he asked for a business card, because his brothers wife lost a baby a year ago and still wasn't doing good with the loss.

Never pass up the opportunity to tell someone you have your very own angel if the question comes up, you just never know who you could possibly help by sharing your story first.

- God Bless
Happy Thanksgiving

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Pay it forward - Winner

I would like to thank all of you wonderful generous hearted ladies who entered in the pay it forward giveaway. The Pay it Forward Giveaway is my best giveaway yet. It shows the humbled hearts that you ladies have, how you unselfishly think of others even when both houses are burning down, you still help your neighbor. Thank you

Teresa a NILMDTS photographer is who I selected to pick the winner, I chose her because she gave me the idea. In an earlier giveaway for an MVOA shirt she submitted herself but for an angel mom. I thought what an amazing kind thing to do, she could have said "I don't have an angel, this giveaway isn't for me" instead she thought of someone else.


Teresa selected Lisa A light at the end of the tunnel . Lisa nominated Tarah and this is what she wrote

I would like to nominate someone who I first "met" when we lost our baby James. Her name is Tarah and she has the biggest heart of anyone I have ever known. She contacted me about a care package she wanted to send after learning about our loss. After corresponding with her she learned that we were in a tight spot getting a headstone for our angel. Through her efforts she raised over $800 to help us purchase James' headstone. Tarah is truly an angel on earth. But she has her own story. She struggles with infertility and has lost 3 babies of her own. Due to a balanced translocation she has a hard time conceiving and staying pregnant. Tarah deserves so much more than I could ever give her but I would like to acknowledge her huge giving heart.

Congratulations Tarah would you please email me at myveryownangel@gmail.com so that I can get your address and size for a multiple loss shirt.

Also Lisa would you also please email me with your size and address's, so that I can send you an MVOA shirt for being humbled to the point that you could nominate someone else for something you wanted.


When you bless someone you will also be blessed




Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Pay It Forward - Giveaway

Now days with the Internet and all these social networking sites, we are able to seek support from people we would have never met aside from our heartbreaking similarity, we all have our very own angels. In my journey I’ve met some of the best, kind hearted, caring and understanding people. I’ve received more keepsake gifts from women who know me no more than the blog I keep; every card says the same comforting words “I understand”

I’m going to pay it forward by starting this chain I hope you follow along. I’m going to purchase one (1) t-shirt for a mother, whose story has touched my heart in a way words can’t express.

I’m also going to purchase 1 “I Have My Very Own Angel”, or “I Have My Very Own Angels” white or black (any size) for one of you ladies to pay it forward to a mother who you have met only by the connection of pregnancy and infant loss and someone………… (Select one)

- Who inspired you?
- Whose story has just touched your heart?
- Who you don’t know but think should have a shirt, to move towards progressive healing
Tell me briefly why you want to pay forward a shirt to them

*I know there are so many stories and so many women who have inspired or touched our hearts, but please only select one person for this giveaway. You are more than welcome to start your own pay it forward chain by visiting our angel store at http://myveryownangel.org/Angel-Store.php

Also while we’re talking about giving and paying things forward, with the holidays coming don’t forget to give a gift to your very own angel that keeps on giving. Make a donation to Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep, String Of Pearls, Sufficient Grace Ministries, Fetal Hope Foundation, March of Dimes, etc, or make small donations to foundations like MVOA’s 345 Teddy Bear Project. Honor your angels by keeping these non profits and not for profit organizations running for future families on this journey.

I’m going to pay forward a shirt to Christy Pearson http://pearsons6.blogspot.com/ I just started following her blog so I don’t know her well, but I know that this shirt would provide her great comfort through this tough time.


THIS GIVEAWAY WILL END ON FRIDAY 11/20 AT 3:30pm (CST) – The winner will be selected by one of my dear supporters that doesn’t have her very own angel, but she holds them all the time.

Good luck

*Anyone can enter*

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Avoiding Cabin Fever

With Fall and Winter coming in many of us live in places where it's too cold to go outside, and with flu season, swine flu and RSV, many of us would rather not go out if we don't need to. Staying in the house can get you wrapped up in grief, the rainy cold days can fix your mind to think you'll never see the sunlight. Cabin Fever is coming, but how do we avoid it???

Tell me how you avoid cabin fever or how you plan to avoid it????

I got a little cabin fever over this last week, but I dread going out in the cold, so I stayed inside and....

Read my Bible - the book of Job always humbles my sad days

Play with Vashon since he's suffering too, it's too cold to go to the park

I started working out for 30-45 min a day, just pop in a little hip hop music and dance my extra weight away.

I wear my MVOA tshirt some nights to sleep in. I don't know why, it just makes me feel extra close to my angel.

I plan my dream vacation. :)



So what things do you do to avoid cabin fever depression when the sun doesn't shine for days???

Thursday, November 12, 2009

What's New With My Very Own Angel

I would like to announce the My Very Own Angel ~ Carrying To Term Comfort Packs~


These special packages are small, but truly from my heart. They are offered for free, to women that make the brave choice to carry out a fatal pregnancy. Please see the Carrying To Term Comfort Packs page on my website, for more information. Please let any mothers you currently know that are carrying to term about this.


My Very Own Angel now has shirts for mommies who have 2 or more angels " I Have My Very Own Angels"

These shirts come in White and Black Only


Because so many have asked we finally selling the MVOA angel bears. However these are personalized and wear a letter initial dog tag for your very own angel


Now even those who don't have their very own angel, can support the mission of My Very Own Angel, with an MVOA supporter t-shirt. These shirts are unisex, so both men and women can wear them and spread the word and support the cause.

Front of shirt

Back of shirt

* All proceeds from the support t-shirts go directly to The 345 Teddy Bear Project and The MVOA Carrying to Term Comfort Packs
Check out our online Angel Store to get your shirts and bears. Email me at myveryownangel@gmail.com if you have any questions.



God has blessed me with this mission, to help and give back. I am currently preparing for my next teddy bear donation drop off and I look forward to everything that will come in the future.