You Just Never Know

A few days ago my mom called me to tell me about her hectic and hard day. It all started when she took a chance at taking my dads truck to work. This truck has a mind of it's own but has been nice for the most part. She arrived to work 20 minutes late and had mountains of paper work to tackle. After waiting in the drive through for 15 minutes only to find that they gave her the wrong order she thought "how can this day get any worse". While driving home the truck with a mind of it's own decided that it wanted to break down, while on the side of the road and sunset coming soon, my mom called for a tow. They quoted her 15-20 minutes of course they took almost 50 minutes. On the ride home the young tow truck driver and my my mom were causally making small talk, he went on to ask about kids because she mentioned how my brother and I attended high school in the city, that conversation lead him to ask about grand kids and my mom jumped to tell him I Have My Very Own Grand~Angel. He offered his condolences and asked what happened, my mom shared Vayden's story and was just finishing up telling him about my mission, as they pulled up to the house. Before my mom got out of the tow truck, he asked for a business card, because his brothers wife lost a baby a year ago and still wasn't doing good with the loss.

Never pass up the opportunity to tell someone you have your very own angel if the question comes up, you just never know who you could possibly help by sharing your story first.

- God Bless
Happy Thanksgiving

Pay it forward - Winner

I would like to thank all of you wonderful generous hearted ladies who entered in the pay it forward giveaway. The Pay it Forward Giveaway is my best giveaway yet. It shows the humbled hearts that you ladies have, how you unselfishly think of others even when both houses are burning down, you still help your neighbor. Thank you

Teresa a NILMDTS photographer is who I selected to pick the winner, I chose her because she gave me the idea. In an earlier giveaway for an MVOA shirt she submitted herself but for an angel mom. I thought what an amazing kind thing to do, she could have said "I don't have an angel, this giveaway isn't for me" instead she thought of someone else.


Teresa selected Lisa A light at the end of the tunnel . Lisa nominated Tarah and this is what she wrote

I would like to nominate someone who I first "met" when we lost our baby James. Her name is Tarah and she has the biggest heart of anyone I have ever known. She contacted me about a care package she wanted to send after learning about our loss. After corresponding with her she learned that we were in a tight spot getting a headstone for our angel. Through her efforts she raised over $800 to help us purchase James' headstone. Tarah is truly an angel on earth. But she has her own story. She struggles with infertility and has lost 3 babies of her own. Due to a balanced translocation she has a hard time conceiving and staying pregnant. Tarah deserves so much more than I could ever give her but I would like to acknowledge her huge giving heart.

Congratulations Tarah would you please email me at myveryownangel@gmail.com so that I can get your address and size for a multiple loss shirt.

Also Lisa would you also please email me with your size and address's, so that I can send you an MVOA shirt for being humbled to the point that you could nominate someone else for something you wanted.

When you bless someone you will also be blessed

Pay It Forward - Giveaway

Now days with the Internet and all these social networking sites, we are able to seek support from people we would have never met aside from our heartbreaking similarity, we all have our very own angels. In my journey I’ve met some of the best, kind hearted, caring and understanding people. I’ve received more keepsake gifts from women who know me no more than the blog I keep; every card says the same comforting words “I understand”

I’m going to pay it forward by starting this chain I hope you follow along. I’m going to purchase one (1) t-shirt for a mother, whose story has touched my heart in a way words can’t express.

I’m also going to purchase 1 “I Have My Very Own Angel”, or “I Have My Very Own Angels” white or black (any size) for one of you ladies to pay it forward to a mother who you have met only by the connection of pregnancy and infant loss and someone………… (Select one)

- Who inspired you?
- Whose story has just touched your heart?
- Who you don’t know but think should have a shirt, to move towards progressive healing
Tell me briefly why you want to pay forward a shirt to them

*I know there are so many stories and so many women who have inspired or touched our hearts, but please only select one person for this giveaway. You are more than welcome to start your own pay it forward chain by visiting our angel store at http://myveryownangel.org/Angel-Store.php

Also while we’re talking about giving and paying things forward, with the holidays coming don’t forget to give a gift to your very own angel that keeps on giving. Make a donation to Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep, String Of Pearls, Sufficient Grace Ministries, Fetal Hope Foundation, March of Dimes, etc, or make small donations to foundations like MVOA’s 345 Teddy Bear Project. Honor your angels by keeping these non profits and not for profit organizations running for future families on this journey.

I’m going to pay forward a shirt to Christy Pearson http://pearsons6.blogspot.com/ I just started following her blog so I don’t know her well, but I know that this shirt would provide her great comfort through this tough time.


THIS GIVEAWAY WILL END ON FRIDAY 11/20 AT 3:30pm (CST) – The winner will be selected by one of my dear supporters that doesn’t have her very own angel, but she holds them all the time.

Good luck

*Anyone can enter*

Avoiding Cabin Fever

With Fall and Winter coming in many of us live in places where it's too cold to go outside, and with flu season, swine flu and RSV, many of us would rather not go out if we don't need to. Staying in the house can get you wrapped up in grief, the rainy cold days can fix your mind to think you'll never see the sunlight. Cabin Fever is coming, but how do we avoid it???

Tell me how you avoid cabin fever or how you plan to avoid it????

I got a little cabin fever over this last week, but I dread going out in the cold, so I stayed inside and....

Read my Bible - the book of Job always humbles my sad days

Play with Vashon since he's suffering too, it's too cold to go to the park

I started working out for 30-45 min a day, just pop in a little hip hop music and dance my extra weight away.

I wear my MVOA tshirt some nights to sleep in. I don't know why, it just makes me feel extra close to my angel.

I plan my dream vacation. :)


So what things do you do to avoid cabin fever depression when the sun doesn't shine for days???

What's New With My Very Own Angel

I would like to announce the My Very Own Angel ~ Carrying To Term Comfort Packs~

These special packages are small, but truly from my heart. They are offered for free, to women that make the brave choice to carry out a fatal pregnancy. Please see the Carrying To Term Comfort Packs page on my website, for more information. Please let any mothers you currently know that are carrying to term about this.


My Very Own Angel now has shirts for mommies who have 2 or more angels " I Have My Very Own Angels"

These shirts come in White and Black Only

Because so many have asked we finally selling the MVOA angel bears. However these are personalized and wear a letter initial dog tag for your very own angel

Now even those who don't have their very own angel, can support the mission of My Very Own Angel, with an MVOA supporter t-shirt. These shirts are unisex, so both men and women can wear them and spread the word and support the cause.

Front of shirt

Back of shirt

* All proceeds from the support t-shirts go directly to The 345 Teddy Bear Project and The MVOA Carrying to Term Comfort Packs

Check out our online Angel Store to get your shirts and bears. Email me at myveryownangel@gmail.com if you have any questions.

God has blessed me with this mission, to help and give back. I am currently preparing for my next teddy bear donation drop off and I look forward to everything that will come in the future.

Week 12 of The Secret

To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

When our babies are taken from us too early, it sure can seem like the whole world is against us. We wonder why us?, why now? We say I did everything right, I wanted this baby, I prayed for their health. Yet the world still went against what we wanted.

What is Faith? Faith is trusting that everything will work out no matter what. Faith is knowing that we all will see our babies again. Faith is trusting that the world was in fact on our side when our babies were picked to be angels.

Losing our babies is by far the worst thing, it's not fair, it hurts like hell, and it's real. The reason why all this happened, we will never truly know, but you were not picked to be a mommy of an angel to turn your back on the world.

If you've lost faith since the loss of your child, it's time to find it again. If you never had it before and you need something to lean on, faith is an awesome crutch. Sufficient Grace is an awesome place to start, not only will you get amazing lessons in faith, but you will find amazing tools in healthy grieving the loss of your baby with Kelly. The added bonus Kelly has her very own angels and she's proud to say it.

I hope that this week by week digest of The Secret was as fun for you as it was for me. You can always go back to the lines in this poem and if you fall, get back up, dust yourself off and keeping climbing up that mountain. By the time you reach the top you will be reunited with your very own angel(s)

God Bless

Giveaway Winner!!!!!!!!

An amazing random act of kindness, I thought Dana from The Midnight Orange was amazing for donating the Never, Ever Let Go sculpture to the MVOA blog giveaway. While reading through your amazing responses it dawned on me that I have a special connection to all of your ladies and all of your angels. Some of you lost before me and you lit the light for me and my journey through loss and some of you are amazing followers of the light I’ve lit for you. I couldn’t pick a winner, so I asked Dana to please help me. She knows none of you ladies and only came in contact with me 2 weeks ago, I thought it would be fair that way.

Dana said each of you deserved to win and she is graciously donating one (1) sculpture to everyone who entered in this giveaway on blogger. She is busy working on them so please allow time but you will all get one that you noted was your favorite or one that she felt suited you based upon the photos on your blogs.

I want you to know that Dana is indeed a walking angel, and I found her website for a reason. I need you mothers to support this artist and this wonderful giving woman. She gets the feelings that we only wish others would understand. She is hope for us, that those not effected personally by pregnancy and infant loss, can understand what we are going through.


I need you ladies to do 3 things for me before accepting this prize.


Thank Dana by posting a thank you comment here on my blog

Also please create a post on your blog letting everyone know how awesome she is
as a person and an artist. Here web link is www.themidnightorange.com

Please send me your names and addresses to myveryownangel@gmail.com

I want every angel mommy to have at least one of her sculptures, not just because they are so beautiful, but because of who they came from, a person who read into our stories, she stepped into our pain, channeled that into a God given talent and she is humble enough to bless so many with empty arms and aching hearts. Please share her info with everyone you know.


* If you did not enter into this giveaway, please still take a moment and visit The Midnight Orange, amazing, breathtaking work.

God Bless